I can’t even say when I posted last….May…? June….? longer? A lot has happened, but that isn’t really why I have neglected this blog.
I just felt like I was doing the same thing over and over and over again, and repetition gets to me after a while. I am not sure if the whole blog thing is for me, as I don’t live a very exciting life, and I don’t really like the reviewing thing.
I feel like you can only talk about your bookshelves so many times, and if you want progress on books, why not just go to Goodreads?
SO! lets talk about what has been going on.
I was in a very unhappy living situation for almost a year, It seemed that every passing day added to the depression that I have lived with for a long time. I can’t do the meds, they make me feel worse. I just need to stay in a semi-positive environment, which that was not. SO! back in June, that whole 30 days ago….well, a little more….I was finally done. I had reached my breaking point, so I packed myself, and my son up, and went to my mothers. I spent the afternoons with my husband, but other than that, I was with my mom, surrounded by her daycare kids [which consist of my 3 nephews and 1 niece]. My son got to visit with children finally, as unless I see my siblings or go to my moms during the day, his life basically consists of me, his daddy and his grandparents [on his dads side]. You know, I should have been really upset that I was basically homeless, and that my son was basically homeless, but! for the first time in months I felt freaking relieved. I had NO idea what we as a family would do from there, but I knew I was free from that incredibly negative situation, so I was happy. Since we hadn’t really time to plan anything, as we had actually planned on leaving a month or two later than I did…..I was at my moms for a bit until we were able to find a place.
I AM REFERRING TO JUNE 23 as my Sunday miracle. I had looked at a few places online, and we had a few appointments lined up to see some of those places, so, I shouldn’t have had to look, but Sunday morning, I woke up early, before L, and I just happened to jump online while I was waiting for my coffee to brew, and right at the freaking top… “PRICE REDUCED” 2 bedroom with a garage…. NOT an apartment building, not some small little place, BUT A TOWNHOUSE. a very nice townhouse, with an incredibly affordable price tag…..so I immediately texted the info to my husband, who called them right away. We still went and saw the place we had an appointment for that day, WHICH FUNNY THING, was on the OTHER side of the Cul de sac from the place I had found that morning….it wasn’t bad, but I didn’t see myself living there long term. It was small, no place for storage, no garage [even though there WAS one, the owner just wasn’t renting out the garages with the apartments….which was lame, and a deal breaker…], SO! we had hours to kill before our other showing, but just as we were leaving they had texted Nic saying YOU CAN COME NOW! so, we hopped in the car and went that whole….10 hours down, haha, and we get there…. AND IT IS NOT THE SAME APARTMENT THAT WAS ADVERTISED….. It was FREAKING BETTER. So the layout of this building….the 4 garages are in the front, there are 2 entrances on either side. Units 1 and 3 are end units that are located in the back with 2 levels. Units 2 and 4 are in the front on top of the garages. We originally went to look at Unit 2, but were shown Unit 1…..I thought the price would go up, I didn’t think it was going to work, BUT EVERYTHING WAS THE SAME, except we got a two level townhouse that had a half bath that the upstairs front unit didn’t have. SO! We jumped on it immediately, and 2 days later we were moving in.
I can’t say my depression has totally dissipated from what it has been the last few months, but I am getting better. Being on our own again, finally, after such a long time has been wonderful, and it is really nice for our son who basically has the whole downstairs to explore [except the bathroom and laundry room, of course]. He is going to be 1 here, in less than a month, and it has been so amazing watching him grow. He is definitely a happy child, with a huge personality. He learns new things every day, and I am really happy that he has a true home again.
THAT situation is not why I haven’t been posting, per se…well, maybe the depression thing, but I am, in general….kind of over the social media thing. I’ve strongly considered just being done with Instagram. I am pretty much done with Goodreads, as I’ve only been using it to keep track of books instead of being active and talking to people. I feel like Bookstagram is more of a place for people to hate on people, and be assholes, and to voice their NON BOOKISH opinions and then go on rants because people shut them down, or other people jump on board and it creates even more negativity. It was fun at first, but now I am not really liking it…WHICH IS A SHAME, because my husband knows I’ve been wanting to move to an indoor theme, so he purchased some really awesome lighting for me as an early anniversary/birthday present. The atmosphere just seems tainted somehow. It was so fun at first, everyone coming together no matter what genre or subject matter of book they were reading, and now we have people bullying others because they want to read a book to form their own opinion, when the bullies themselves take opinions of others and over exaggerate content matter. I feel like everything is about diversity. If you read books with white straight ablebodied people you’re the worst person in the world. If these authors TRY to be diverse, they aren’t doing it “well enough” so people tear them, and the readers down….etc, etc, etc….
There is just way too much drama….I pick up a book, and read…..if it is entertaining to me, I read it. If it is boring, I don’t read it. I don’t care if the characters are white, yellow, brown, black, purple, straight, gay, or any number of the other orientations there are, if I don’t like the writing, I am not going to like it. I think people spend way too much time concentrating on the tiny little details that they hate anything they pick up. I don’t think people should judge, or be judged for the books they read. It reminds me of all the “girl on girl hate”….that person finds enjoyment in reading, just as much as you do….so just let them read what makes them happy, and you do the same thing.
I don’t even know where that rant came from. It is late, I am tired….and I guess my lack of recent posts has made me miss writing, haha [but not enough to make this an every day thing again].
What bookish thoughts do I have……
I have reached my Goodreads reading goal of 65 books in 2017, and have surpassed it. I am currently reading books 71 & 72 of the year. One of which is my challenge 10 pick for the tackleyourlibrarychallenge17 reading challenge. I feel like I am the only one actually taking part in it, but since I did it for just Lauren and I, and THEN decided to make it a public thing, I am not too worried. It has helped me tremendously, and I can’t wait to make one for 2018.
I’ve spent the last 3 days cleaning and organizing my goodreads shelves. In my “want to read-to be bought” shelf, I went from somewhere around 400 to just under 90. Books I’d either bought since I’d organized last, found for free, borrowed, or simply just didn’t want to read anymore. Today, I started with my Amazon wishlists. Most of the books on Goodreads made their way to “wishlists” on Amazon over the years, so that I could keep track of prices for kindle books….Honestly though? I don’t even know why I ever put a good 2/3 books on there, because they did not sound at all interesting to me….so I’ve lowered those lists a lot too.
Wellllll, I am getting kind of bored writing, so I think I will end this and go back to my movie before heading off to bed.